Warrior Princess

June 24, 2015

Trajectory

Filed under: Uncategorized — ggirl @ 12:10 pm

 

close up of wolf face“Life calls the tune, we dance.” ~ John Galsworthy

The days are long and treacherous, interrupted from time to time with thoughts of “the trajectory of my life.”  I even mentioned it to my psychiatrist recently.  She had no idea what I was talking about.  And, really, neither do I.

The word “trajectory” implies a pattern, an arc, a rising and falling.  My life has contained a slight uptick in events.  From horrific to extremely unpleasant, a state of being I came to  view as a victory over fate.  Yay! Massive unpleasantness–what a relief!

Indeed, I’ve triumphed, or escaped the dark hand of fate risen from genetic potentialities and the hard glaze of barren sustenance in my early years.

But mainly it’s a flat line.  I spend my death-directed days and hours exactly as it should be.  It’s all darkness and, these days, despair.  I have found no deliverance.  How could I be surprised?

June 23, 2015

List: Things I was supposed to do today

Filed under: Uncategorized — ggirl @ 10:39 pm

gray wolf one“The three great essentials to achieve anything worthwhile are, first, hard work; second, stick-to-itiveness; third, common sense.” ~Thomas Edison

Things I was supposed to do

  1. Go to my yoga class
  2. Unclog the kitchen sink
  3. Clean the bathtub
  4. Mop the bathroom floor
  5. Continue to work on the cart in the breakfast room
  6. Vacuum
  7. Cook dinner

Things I actually accomplished:

  1. Yoga class
  2. Bathroom – check
  3. Vacuum – yes
  4. Dinner – done
  5. Sat on the sofa for three or four hours
  6. Watched a documentary and a half on Snagfilms.com
  7. Was annoyed about the fact that one of the documentaries only played half way through

Not a successful day.

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