Warrior Princess

June 24, 2015

Trajectory

Filed under: Uncategorized — ggirl @ 12:10 pm

The days are long and treacherous, interrupted from time to time with thoughts of “the trajectory of my life.”  I even mentioned it to my psychiatrist recently.  She had no idea what I was talking about.  And, really, neither do I.

close up of wolf face“Life calls the tune, we dance.” ~ John Galsworthy

The word “trajectory” implies a pattern, an arc, a rising and falling.  My life has contained a slight uptick in events.  From horrific to extremely unpleasant, though viewed as a victory over fate.  Indeed, I’ve triumphed, or escaped the dark hand of fate risen from genetic potentialities and the hard glaze of barren sustenance in my early years.

But mainly it’s a flat line.  I spend my death-directed days and hours exactly as it should be.  It’s all darkness and, these days, despair.  I have found no deliverance.  How could I be surprised?

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